Thursday, October 28, 2010


What a paradoxical night.

It put everything in perspective.

All I can say is that it ended with me killing a spider.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

same problem, different day

Be • ing

whoa (squared)

Another "whoa" moment that happened yesterday was when I saw Buried.

So so good. So intense. So... whoa.

The Hurt Locker and Buried are for the current war what The Deer Hunter and Apocalypse Now were for the Vietnam War.

Yeah, I said it.

Monday, October 25, 2010


Today's acting class made me dumb. A dumb actor that is, allowing me to simply react and think less.

And before I had even realized what had happened I said, "This is the most relaxed, I think I've felt."


Friday, October 22, 2010

Tuesday, October 19, 2010


In the last 24 hours I have watched The Deer Hunter (which I had not seen in 10 years, and I am only 20 now, yep I watched it that young), watched The Messenger, and went for an hour long run while running lines for the play.

I do this because I choose to. I do this because I want to. I do this because it will make me better. I do this to prepare.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

What have you done?


Okay, now that that opening line for my character is out of my system, let's get to the analysis of tonight's work.

Tonight I had another character rehearsal. The one I had last week was a breakthrough, and I was hoping for the same thing tonight, but knew it would be hard to top.

It was hard to top, but I (rather, my director and I) may just have done it. AND on a great side note: I didn't have any e-n-u-n-c-i-a-t-i-o-n problems tonight.

So we worked one of my letters, who's opening line starts this post.

The major growth of this letter happened when my director told me to shout my speech. So I did, or at least thought I was until he said,

"That's not shouting. I want you to shout it."

And I replied with,

"You want we to shout it? Okay."

This was mostly to myself, trying to work my way up to it.

So then I opened my mouth and the words carried me home.

Some great things came out of this rehearsal, and some great compliments that I had never heard anyone tell me before. I'm not trying to toot my own horn, I'm just trying to keep it as a personal record of my growth.


I am part of a choreographed fight scene at the top of the show and my director told me that in that scene, which is downstage, I "have the movement of both an athlete and a dancer." But upstage, for my letter we tried to do marching, I tried to do marching, while saying the letter and it was an uncoordinated sloppy marching mess. Maybe, being on a "actual" stage for the marching part intimidated me, matter of fact that probably is exactly what happened. But, we ended up scratching that march anyways, so it's not that big a deal, except for the fact that I couldn't do it.

Another thing that was nice to hear from my director was,

"Don't ignore your talent, by not going there."

This was in regards to when I thought I was shouting, but was really just talking slightly louder compared to when I actually accepted what my character needed to say and convey. I feel like I do this more times than not too. Maybe the reason why I feel that I have so much progress in these character rehearsals is because there are less people watching me than during a standard rehearsal with the entire company. It probably goes back to me still being rather shy, but that I can get over. I just can no longer be afraid to take that extra step whenever the character is leading me.

Another thing I took away from,

"Don't ignore your talent, by not going there."

Was the fact that this was the first time somebody has used the word "talent" to describe my acting.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010


I neeD to sPeaK more CLearLY.

THis haS beeN my biggeST probLEM iN all oF my reHearsaL proCessES I haVE goNE THrough.

BuT iT iS a QUicK fiX, anD I GueSS iF I haVE To haVE a probLEM, QUicK fiXeS aRE THe beST kinD To haVE.

DiCTioN anD ELoCUTioN ruLE!

Monday, October 11, 2010

tHE gAMe

ThE nAmE oF tHe GaME rIGHt nOw iS.. .



RePEtitION. ..


GeT It riGhT

GEt it RIght

bUT HOw?

tHru repetition.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010


Building a role takes time. There are many steps taken in this process. There are slip ups and missteps taken too. But the most important thing to build is the foundation, because everything stems from that.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

The things I have scene

Last night's rehearsal was... remarkable.

I got to work on one of the monologues I have with my director and the character EXPLODED off the page.

Both the director and I could see and feel the major progress we were able to cultivate from the words. We were able to reach places I didn't even realize this character had. It felt incredible.

He was pushing me to go further and deeper into the words, the lines, the character, the sights, the sounds, the feeling. And I pushed back. Rather yet, the character pushed back. Pushing me to exactly where he needed me to be.

What a feeling it is to build a role.

Monday, October 4, 2010

I am...

I am... acting again.
I want... better sleep habits.
I need... to start writing more.
I feel... ... ... blocked.
I see... happy fingers typing away.